Another delay

But it's justified this time! I've been in Florida. But now I'm back. This state is *cold*

It's the middle of August and it's only 61! what's going on?!?

Enough of that, though. On to more important things... like I have any.

The fact that I leave for the navy in a matter of a couple of months has begun looming over me more and more. I wonder if I'll have time to do the things I want to do, to say the things I want to say, all while preparing myself for this life change. I don't want to go into boot camp with any regrets, but I'm sure I will. As time passes, people get left behind. They're casualties of the war on life. Somewhere, deep down, I fear (know?) that leaving for boot will be leaving all my friends behind for good. That I may never see them again. Or if I do, I know it'll never be the same. I will never be the same person that I am today -- and it remains to be seen if that is a good thing or not.

I went shopping today - but I didn't buy anything. This is rare, but I'm poor and getting better at convincing myself there's just a lot of stuff that I don't need. Not the point. I was trying on clothes (as one typically does when shopping) when I was surprised by what I saw in the mirror. It's not that I've got bleached hair and scared myself, or that I had some horrible new disfiguring hair style...

I saw two of me. It's as though a hologram was cast directly over me. I could see who I am now - 22, joining the Navy, goatee, tall, somewhat confident in himself... and underneath it all, I saw the kid who sat in department stores with his mother while she did the shopping. The kid who climbed under racks looking for things to play with (which is in short supply in a department store). The one who still had the rest of his life ahead of him. He's something I'll never be able to shake.. the gangly (yes, I was gangly as a kid if you couldn't have guessed ;) ) little boy I once was.

Or maybe I'm merely being especially introspective and with my current hairstyle I look pretty much the same from the back as I did 12 years ago.